Current situation

I've been on maternity leave for 8 months and have been spending this time in Portugal with my family. My husband is back in the UK and the kids and I miss him very much but we decided together that it would be best if I spent this time getting support from my family because as we all know, handling a new baby and a preschooler is no walk in the park. I'm really enjoying this time with my family and trying to make the most of it while I can. I'll be returning in about 3 months and then will be back at work shortly after. 

I miss everyone at work but I'm very anxious about returning. Firstly because the cost of childcare for 2 will be crippling and also because I worry Alice won't be ready to be away from me. She's 7 months old now and the same age her big brother was when I returned to work. He was so different though, and he was so independant so the transition for him was a breeze. Alice on the other hand is very clingy. She is breastfed and won't take milk from a bottle so has been with me all the time. Maybe I'm the one who's not ready to leave her... or both! She's also not sleeping through the night, infact, she's far from it. Some nights we are still getting up every 2 hours so working while sleep deprived would be hard. We still have some time so hopefully it'll be fine by then.